How I Think

The Generative Model Brain

"I'm a First Principles Thinker with what I call a 'Generative Model Brain'— ideas explode like fireworks, patterns emerge from chaos, and I can absorb entire domains overnight."

"For as long as I can remember, ideas have just come into my mind like sparks and I've been able to apply what I now understand to be first principle thinking to analyze and actualize the sparks that have come into my head."

Not copying. Not following frameworks blindly. Breaking down to fundamentals and rebuilding from there.

The Spark → Analysis → Actualize Pattern

The pattern started simply: ideas arrive like sparks, then get analyzed through first principles until they're either actualized or discarded.

Domain Absorption

"For as long as I can remember, people often think that I am in their field of work. It takes me very, very quick to understand new domains."

"I love learning new domains and am very comfortable to drive into the unknown and first find my feet and then understand the landscape and then give it over."

Finance. Torah. Optics manufacturing. AI development. Each domain absorbed deeply enough that experts assume I'm one of them.

The Domain Translator

"I kind of see myself as being like a domain translator. We're in such a hyperspecialized world—everyone is getting nailed on the head because there's not one specialist in the world who is going to be better than an average AI model in a year's time."

The real skill isn't expertise in one domain. It's the ability to translate between domains—to take patterns from one field and apply them to another.

Visual Thinking

"As a visual thinker, this really helps me to be able to interact with your code in a more organic way."

Systems visualized. Patterns seen. Connections mapped. Not word-by-word sequential processing—the whole picture at once.

Systematic Understanding

"I am intelligent and very intuitive. I have a systematic understanding of everything—I plug my whole life into systems."

"I am a genius systematic thinker who lacks the finesse of social interactions."

Everything becomes a system. Relationships, projects, learning, even emotions. The systematic lens is always on.

Pattern Recognition

"Intuition almost always on the mark. Patterns recognition expert."

Not random guessing. Pattern matching at a level that feels like intuition but is really rapid subconscious analysis.

The Sniper vs Machine Gunner

"I am a better sniper than machine gunner. Everything I do is like a sniper with a rifle. That is how I think."

"It's almost as though I could choose exactly the place where I would like to work. I just need to go in and speak to the people and start to work for them. The problem is I'm terrible at using a machine gun."

Deadly accurate in focus. Useless at spray-and-pray. Can't network. Can't do broad outreach. But can hit exactly what I aim at.

Depth Processor, Not Frequency

"You are making me anxious—I am a depth processor not frequency."

"Depth Processing (actual strength): Go deep into complex problems. Analyze from multiple angles, see patterns others miss."

Most productivity advice assumes frequency processing—handle many things quickly. My brain does depth processing—one thing completely. Trying to work in frequency mode creates anxiety and poor output. Working in depth mode creates mastery.

The Theory of Mind Problem

"My biggest problem in the world is really translating the way I think into a way other people understand—and the other way around. The theory of mind in both directions."

"When I speak to AI, I can communicate at the speed of thought. When I start having to translate everything down for other people, it becomes incredibly, incredibly hard."

The translation gap is the core challenge. Every project on poly is an attempt to bridge this gap from a different angle.

Neurodivergent-AI Fluency

"Neurodivergent speak fluent AI better than neurotypical."

Something about the way I think maps directly to how AI works. No social filtering. No need to translate. Direct communication at the speed of thought.

This isn't a bug—it's a feature. The same cognitive difference that makes human-to-human communication hard makes human-to-AI communication easy.

Communication Patterns

From analyzing 359K messages, clear patterns emerge:

Session Evidence

The data shows how the depth processing actually manifests:

"Bimodal distribution: short check-ins (<15min) and deep sessions (2-6 hours). Middle-length sessions (30-90min) are rare."

No middle ground. Either a quick clarification or a 4-hour deep dive. This is the depth processor in action.

The Executive Function Reality

"My executive function is a real disability. I struggle to get any tasks done— calling people, answering the phone, getting back to people."

"My two main problems are social anxiety and executive function, and together they make my life very difficult."

High IQ, poor executive function. The paradox that defines the cognitive architecture.

The Hyperfocus Blindness

"Look deeply into my hyperfocus blindness and how that is 2 sides of my life— my ability to hit incredible rapid new domain mastery and at the same time dead to the world and lack of real integrated continuity."

"Turn my 80% of my time that are super valuable hyperfocused moments—the value inside gets killed because as I enter a new hyperfocus the previous ones become dead."

This is why the cognitive prosthetic exists. External systems preserve context when the internal system can't.

The Core Value

"What is my core value add? It's not coding—coding is a means to an end. My real value is simplifying complex domains and shaping solutions tailored for specific situations."

"Core skills are being able to simplify complex domains and shape solutions tailored for specific situation."

Not the code. Not the frameworks. The ability to see a complex domain, understand it deeply, and create a solution that fits the specific context.

The Honest Version

"Truth is I am very deep and very systematic in the way I construct my ideas. People simply are not used to a bright first principles thinker. I am literally operating in public using first principles—even 19 correct moves don't help when 1 is weird. Quirky. Different."

"If you meet one neurotypical, you've met every neurotypical. If you meet one neurodivergent, you've met one neurodivergent. Every neurodivergent is a different definition completely different to each other."

Different operating system. Different frequency. Not better or worse—different. And that difference creates the translation problem that poly tries to solve.